I filled my head with your voice, Now i'm drowning

Worthless Nightlife

2006-09-22T18:06:00.000+08:00

From his point of view;

watch those cash burns as you walk through those doors

let the alcohol flow down your fucking throat

watch your body burst into fucking flames

lights flashing and music blasting

call yourself the king of the dancefloor

next minute, you'll find yourself dead.

no offences at all, really.

Kill The Pest.

2006-09-15T14:10:00.000+08:00

Well I guess I'm just a pest in your lives.
If you hate me just say it.
thanks.

once again, i deserve this

Hello? Who's andy?

2006-09-11T03:10:00.000+08:00

Just Pretend that i'm dead.
.
Isnt this just ama-za-zing? Wasting your time at home everysingle day. Sitting infront of the computer all day long. The only time i'm away from it is when i'm gonna have dinner,smokebreak,pee/shit or whatever. I'm kind of getting used to you. If you put me in orchard road now. I'll feel like I'm in a jungle. Alright, so school is fucked up as usual, I cant wait to be transferred course next year.
.
The Excitement.

Tmrw, I'm getting two "Shih Tzu x Malteese" Puppies. I cant wait.

okay bye.

the duck boy is dead.

give it a few more months

and they'll say,

who the fuck is andy.

The Crocodile Hunter

2006-09-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna miss you on tv steve.

My favourite channel of all time is Animal Planet, I swear. I love animals, I love the way Steve Irwin talks, I love the way Jeff Corwin jokes around. I just love Animal Planet. Now That Steve is gone, There wont be anymore adventures and crocodile hunting by you again. I cant fly to aussie to pay my respect, so I made edited this photo of you.

I Love You Steve! I'm really gonna miss you.

Rest In Peace, Dude.

Goodnight : )

Roses For The Dead

2006-08-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

Hello Good Morning,

"SAGE"

Ally - Vocals
Andy - Lead Guitar
Hetty - Rythym Guitar
Mark - Bass
Emu - Drums

We had a gig last night at ALLYSSA's place for her sweet sixteen birthday. Okay I'm sorry but I dont even know who she is. But she's nice okay so ya the set was quite good. And erm the food was fantastic and the cake too. And her family's really damn nice la. Her mom paid us, and no I'm not gonna tell anyone how much.

Then Today, I had to go to school to speak to the Digital Media Design (DMD) Section Head about me transferring to DMD from Electrical Technology. They ask me to go back to Electrical and complete this whole year so they can transfer me to DMD straight. So now andy after months of enjoyment. Its time to go back to school even though I hate the course but ya its for DMD, I cant wait till next year and all my school work will be about drawing,drawing,drawing,designing,designing,designing. OMG! This is so exciting.

And anyway, I hope and pray that I can get a part-time job somewhere or what so ever, I wanna buy my I-POD Video, New Clothes, New Shoes, Guitar & Amplifier, New Computer, New Furnitures and stuff for my room, PS3, Camera and the list goes on. Woah this is like gonan cost me a bomb but I dont care. And I wanna save up money to go N.A.F.A.

alrighty, my life is artsy fartsy!

goodnight readers! :)

musik//

fuenralforafriend - roses for the dead

Tokyo Drift!!

2006-08-04T04:25:00.000+08:00

Today was quite fun fun fun like rah rah rah!!!!!

Went to gardens and met Tessa,Kenneth,Mikey,Daryl and Rebecca. Then we went to Tessa's place for dvds!! guess guess guess what did we watch?

THE FAST AND THE FURIOUS TOKYO DRIFT

hahaha the quality isnt that good, but the show is still nice. Fast Fast Cars, And there's gonna be another one coming out I think, The movie ended with Sean having a race with Vin Diesel, sorry I dont know how to spell your damn name baldy haha. And yes its very late now. And okay since you asked me to blog about you REBECCA. We are the late late night chit chatters with fetish for secret food and beverages hahaha.

Snapple And Meiji Chocolates are good

For those people who have school in like a few hours

HAVE FUN! :)

remember yesterday; the 1st day of every month

2006-08-02T02:15:00.000+08:00

Every 1st day of everysingle month was a very very special day. Filled with happiness, love and laughter. I dont even wanna think of whats left now. And I'm sure that all those things that reminds you of me are probably in the rubbish dump somewhere. Its so fucking hurtful, but whats the point everything doesnt even mean a fucking shit to you at all.

Just take care of yourself,

It was great knowing you.

I remember you...

2006-07-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

would you hold my hand and sing with me

the song we used to sing

would you stay with me i'm on my knees

please dont ever leave

all of these memories is all thats making me

holding on to whats believed

please dont ever leave

holding on to whats believed

please dont ever leave

cant we set our eyes on a new star

whats is life without love and scars

dont leave me now we have gone too far

all these lifes are turning suicide

away to a place where no one will ever know

I screamed your name from as far as i can go

I Love You so fucking much,

I didnt even let go one bit.

I cant believe it

to let you know that my heart is always yours

I remember you.

baby, maybe someday

My Life: The Greeners....

2006-07-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

I just wanna apologise to all of my friends and tell them that I know this is a very big mistake and its something really stupid and selfish to do. But Its just at that point of time I just cant think of anything else but ways to end my life. And Yes I know some of you are really disappointed with me and believe that I did this all just to seek attention and make all of you pity me. I dont blame anyone of you, I am not gonna fight back and make you all think I really wanted to end my life. Many people manage to get through all these by moving on and fighting through the emotional pain that they have suffered. But I'm just a like a new student who just got into primary school, I'm still learning. I am slower than everysingle one of you. My weakness is dealing with emotional pain. Suicidal thoughts comes so easily and I just cant seem to push them away. Its actually hurtful hearing my friends thinking that all these are just for attention seeking. Theres nothing more I can do now, but just accept it and stuff. I know what I have done and I know its a really big mistake and I am willing to learn from it and really wake up this time. Well, My life is mostly about my friends. There nothing in the world that can make me happier than how THE GREENERS do. I thought of all the past times we've had almost a year ago, how happy the greeners are together everysingle night without fail, we would be a the coffee shop sitting down with smiles on our faces and jokes flying all around and stuff. We dont even need to call one another, we'll just be at that very table of the coffee shop, and everysingle time a person walks in from the entrance, all our eyes will turn and look who that is. Its so amazing. We may not show how much we love another, but we can tell you know. We are like a big family. And do you all remember we actually thought of having a big dinner and call everysingle one of the greeners down?? It didnt happen. Time past, fights and lots of problems came. Everyone drifted and some even split into groups. Now, Its so hard to see the smiles that we used to have before. This family of friends is so important to me, that I could just wish to live all my life with all of them being still as close till the day we grow so old that we're fighting for our lives. Do you all actually think of all these past memories? And hoping that it can happen again. Maybe not now, but I really wanna see the close-ness of our friendships and the smiles on our faces like before. I hate drifting away from friends you know. I wanna leave a note to some of you.

Donn: I dont even dare to say anything now, because I've put you through so much shit and gave you so much pain even though I love you so much. How I wish I could just turn back time and treat you so much better and show you how much I really love you. Like I said, no one has ever made me felt this way, no one has ever made me feel so much love. I've made too many mistakes and take too long to learn from them that even makes you lose total trust in me. Now, We're almost nothing, just memories. There's nothing much I can do now, but just wait , hope and pray. If you still believe this, (I know you dont) I LOVE YOU...

Kenneth & Joshua : We used to the 3 musketeers of Wicked and Greeners, Now its so hard for us to be so close once again. Do you remember the skating days, and after that we'll skate down to green and everything? Its really amazing thinking how close we are before. And Please dont stop believing that we're never gonna be so close ever again. I love the both of you fucking much, you cant imagine. Josh, do you remember the skating days. When only just you and me went all the way to town and skate, even though we're not that good but we still had so much fucking fun? I missed it so much, I miss being close with you again. I really want them all back I swear. Kenneth, I am happy that we're getting close again, and I miss going to your house like most of the time of my week. The both of you just mean so much to me and I really want the 3 musketeers stuff to come back. I still have pictures of the 3 of us, and I'm sure we can look at it and laugh. I fucking love the both of you. I swear.

Jeremy: Silence doesnt mean I dont care, Its just I'm afraid I might say the wrong things and make things worst and I dont really know what exactly is happening and stuff. Nowadays Its so fucking hard to see the Jeremy with cheerful smiles on his face and how he always crack jokes about anyone one of us. Do you remember how you always make fun of others and the whole table would be laughing? I know you are disappointed with what I've done and I know you are going to shit and yes its worst than mine, please dont ever think that I think that I dont care and all, because I really do its just that I myself are going thru so much stuff that I cant even help myself. We called one another "BRO" for a reason. Yes we might have drifted, but nothing can ever change the way I treat and look at you. Cause I swear, that's how much you mean to me, if you dont know that.

Peter: You're one of the freaking jokers with jokes that can make all of us die laughing. And Yes I know youre disappointed to, I dont blame you. And I cant change what you believe what was the purpose of me doing this. I just hope you will understand at least a little bit pete. We might not know each other soooo well, but you mean alot to me too.

Ben: You're like so old la you, I was happy that I got close to you and I really wanna thank you for caring so much for me. And even after the greeners drifted, I still see you with at least a bottle of beer on the table with you and listening to your mp3 and just smoking sometimes laugh at the joke we shared and stuff. Just so that you'ld know, you're one of those people that I trust the most.

Stace & Ryan: I may not show how much I love you both, but ya la I really love you both as if you're my brother and sister, I swear. And Yes we might not be that close but close enough right? Stace, You might be far away and its hard for us to talk and stuff, but you still really really mean alot to me. Youre one of those who listen to me so much and give me real good advice you know. I dont know how to explain this but yeah youre like the best best best. And I am really sorry, I am really very very very very sorry for disappointing and letting you down, I am willing to learn from my mistakes now and Stace you know I love you. Ryan, Youre like my brother and yeah we're not that close but close enough uh huh? I know you really fucking care for me so much because you have been there for me countless times and I really appreciated it alot, I may not show you that I really love you and care. But I hope that you know I do. And one more thing, I really respect the relationship that you both are having.

Nigel: You're back to have fun with your all of us, I'm sorry for screwing a little bit of your time up. We might not have that much of a conversation when youre in aussie, but yeah I do miss you when youre away. The Times we had, and lets think about all those skating days. Do you remember skating at hougang point one evening and we almost all of us started skating with boxers and we even pulled down abit to let those people see our butt cracks? I wont forget about that. Its just now when I talk to you, I just feel like we're different and theres a wall between us. I'm sorry.

Scott & Nestor: Where have the both of yours hairy asses gone to? Scott, I miss going to your house almost everysingle day, I mean your old house which is like less than 1 minute walk away. Remember how often we used to call each other and say, "eh, I'm bored can I go over not". I really miss them la. And Nestor, remember when youre staying at Scott's place for quite awhile and I always go there cause we're both bored at home? and just sit down talk cock and smoke our life away. I hope you remember, and eh you're a father now la.

Nicole,Claire,Hetty,Tessa: Thank you girls so much for being there for me and I really enjoy hanging out with all of you. Hetty & Nicole, the both of you are the loudest dont have to deny you both know it. Claire, We dont get to see one another very much but you still mean alot to me uh huh. Thanks for being there for me, and please dont forget the green algae man. Tess, you've been there for the most the most most most, and thank you so much for being at the hospital everysingle day, I was really really really very very happy, and you're my partner and always will be.

Natalie Ho: You're like cute la, ha. Well Nat, I am really sorry for being a pain in the ass and being a childish fuck for fighting with you so many times. I am really sorry, and I know you put in alot of afford in helping me and all, but it din really work. But trust me nat, now it will. And maybe I dont show it but you do mean alot alot alot to me too okay. And you are the one who started Silhouette Clothing which is now known as "SEPHIRE CLOTHING" with me. Let's not give up and keep this dream going okay nat?

Natasha Liew: I know we've drifted alot eversince you left singapore. I am really sorry for letting this happen, but I really want this close-ness of our friendship back. Do you remember how we'll always be on the phone till God knows what time? I miss all of those I really do. And Nat you know i Love you.....

Zac : We may not be that close but close enough yeah? after knowing for quite a long time I'm beginning to believe that youre kind like close to God like, as in like the nice guy kinda way and all ya know? anyway, I just wanna thank you for keeping company and cheering me up most of the time and making me sunrise everysingle time when I go over to your place for soccer and stuff. Dont forget what we're suppose to do, form a chinese screamo band and write mixed genre songs yeah. I just wanna thank you for every single thing especially the road trip that we had, its really really fun. Thank You Zac!

To those people who I've left out, please dont think that you're not that important or anything. Please everysingle one of my friends do. And I love all of you. I've learned my lessonS....

History.

2006-07-12T05:11:00.000+08:00

Its amazing that I've just only to be learning about life. Its not wrong for someone to have suicidal thoughts when you get hurt, like I said it just thoughts. Somethings can just hurt you so much till you even tried killing yourself, yes its foolish to do something like that. I have been through it countless times. Yes I had thoughts and I even attempted doing it but I failed, totally nothing happened to me, I thought I was gone by that moment but I was still freaking alive. Maybe its something that is telling me that this is real real real foolish cause it wont only hurt my family it will hurt those people who loves me. This feeling is telling me to pick myself up when I fall and learn from every bit of the mistakes I've made. I am going to be a better person that I was before, feel for others and never ever neglect my friends anymore. I just wanna thank every single one of my friends who have been there for me. I love all of you so much, I really do. I cant imagine myself being like this, I am only alright when I'm around my friends but I'm never alright when I'm alone. This feeling is killing me slowly. Its hurting me so bad till I cant even recognize myself in the mirror. I wish I could be like before and be happy with all of my friend including you. I am not as strong as how you all think I am, In fact I thought I was stronger to go through all these, I am sorry to disappoint everyone of you, but I am not strong at all I am really sorry. I would even lock myself in the room and just talk to myself, all these is driving me crazy I swear it is. Yes alot of people have gone through this, and I'm sure you all know how I feel and what kind of situation I in. I am new to this and its really killing me things just have to happen at the wrong time and nothing ever goes the way you wanted it to be, sometimes life gets so unfair you just feel like stabbing a knife on your head. Mistakes people make can be so hurtful that it can kill somebody, even words that are so strong and hurtful it can kill you too you know that? So tell me, Is there anyplace in the world where you can find happiness and peace where no one's crying, fighting, killing and screaming in pain. I cant life be like this. Or maybe life is meant to have good and bad times, I'm sure millions of people have died from their bad times and just couldnt take their pain anymore and just totally gave up on their lives. Now I just wish I could sleep and never wake up again, I am really sick and tired of going through all these and facing them and more problems just keeps on coming. I swear things just happen at the wrong damn motherfucking time.

I thought I was stronger,

will history be falling for science.

get me some chemicals that can give me a wish

everyone knows what I want

and you know it,

my history, is yours

if my words meant nothing,

and all the love I gave wasnt enough

here you go, my heart

take it

its yours..

its yours...

I Lost.

2006-06-02T12:56:00.001+08:00

See the pyramids along the nile, watch the sunrise from the tropic isle.

Is this a feeling for you worth keeping? Does all those memories of us still worth keeping? Does me holding on to you mean something?

I admit for my selfishness and all my lies about me changing forthe better, I admit for all the times I got jealous about stuff and kept hiding it, I admit for all the anger I've kept and not telling you about it, I admit to everysingle one that read this. Cause I wanna everyone that I have been learning, changing for the better and start over a new life in all these days of agonizing pain. For I am nothing without you, happiness isnt a word in my life anymore. I am still holding on and waiting for that very day when I get your call or at least a message. Cant you see apologise bleed from my eyes? Is there still hope, Is there still a chance. My mind is just nothing but you walking in circles in it. Waiting for that one day that you are willing to forgive me.

I miss you so badly

I love you so damn much

my history, is yours

is there still a chance

I hope..

lovething--

whats a special day, without a special you...

2006-06-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

This day just means so much to me
iloveyou, always

i'm here without you

2006-05-30T18:04:00.000+08:00

Am I just holding on for something that's never gonna happen?

Whatever it is, I'll still be holding on as long as I still love you as much, It gets more and more painful each day, thinking of you, missing you but nothing can stop me from loving you and keep holding on. I wont let go, Ive learned alot for the past few days. Its only been a short while, but it felt so long. Cause you're not here with me, anymore..

youre my heroine.

lovething

2006-05-28T03:10:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on...
Days gone by, wound's getting deeper and deeper, but feelings are never fading.

You walk in circles in my heart like how the world keeps on spinning and how my heart keeps on beating.

As sun rises, youre first of thoughts. Thoughts of you being by my side, hoping that this day that I will see your smile again. Youre always on my mind, everywhere I go I think of you, every turn I make I hope that youre there.
slow down baby, youre too far ahead.

My world's not the same anymore, days have changed my life has change.

I'm gonna be strong, and take each day as a healing for the both of us... Your feelings for me are sure to fade but mine for you, are never gonna fade a bit. I am going to do this even though its killing me slowly, I'm not gonna show it. Things are getting from bad to worst for me, youre not here anymore, youre not here. I am gonna be strong and hold on, holding on isnt easy, and I know you going thru alot and stuff, I really hope you are alright, I hope things a getting at least a small lil bit better for you. I miss you so badly, you cant imagine. Well, you're worth it, you're my heroine. You're worth those tears that I've shed everysingle night. Outside, I pretending to be alright. But inside, Its killing me. Well, Just so you'ld know, my love for you is getting stronger each day and its totally impossible for me to keep you out of my mind for more than five minutes.

you're the love of my life
you're the best I ever and will have
you're the most gorgeus girl I've ever met
you're someone, that I wont stop loving
you're worth waiting for
you're worth holding on for
you're my everything
you're my heroine
you're my love, my life

iguessyou'retheonlyone

2006-05-03T03:44:00.000+08:00

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

I guess you're the only one left standing when everything else goes down
You're still the only one, you're still the only one

lost and broken love

2006-05-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

if you go i'll wait for you, if you go i'll wait for you

paint the wall your favorite shade of blue i hope all your dreams come true and i will be renew and i won't waste your time anymore

finally put a lock on our closed door and you will not break through and we'll try to put smiles on our face

and see who is the quickest to replace our lost and broken love

mylove,mylife

2006-04-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

I will still be holding on to you
I swear.

fire works in our final destination

2006-04-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

i wanna hold you so tight now and never let go

we'll watch the fire works together, hoping that it'll last for 20mins
we've reach our final destination
we.. have a long way more to go

lets look at each other so closely, nose to nose
should i or should i not.
iwyb

Let you show them how to live

2006-04-16T05:24:00.000+08:00

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that

I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

hellow boyboy

2006-01-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

okay hello i'm in school again
my comp at home is still not working
it's been 3 months already
okay i think we're going for break soon
byebye
natliew: let's go for catching before you leave

it's been long

2006-01-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

hellow everyone
i'm in my new school now
the school is so "new" and "nice"
the people in the school are "nice"
i "LOVE" my course
okay byebye

songoftheday-
ITE - I can see my future

silhouette

2005-11-11T12:39:00.000+08:00

hello everyone
i'm at hougang green now using pantat's laptop
anyway
silhouette clothing is back again

www.silhouetteclothing.cjb.net

okay byebye.

say days ago

2005-10-28T06:08:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,
my com is down again
i'm at pantat's house now
he's cooking
okay byebye

songoftheday
the used - say days ago

Graduation...

2005-10-16T16:46:00.000+08:00

I miss secondary school life, really
I miss how me and my classmates made our teachers angry
I miss all the shit we do in class
I miss the food in the canteen
I miss everything in secondary school : )
although i dont really like going to school

Graduated on friday night.
and it's like the last time i'm gonna see the teachers and my classmates
haha okay i gotta wake up in like 4hrs for work
goodbye montfort secondary
goodnight everyone

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever...

ByeBye School!

2005-10-15T06:35:00.000+08:00

Last night,
me,donn,kenneth,nicole tan,josh went over to tessa's place and watched 3 different movies.
had lots of fun over there and we're all dying for a stick of cig! hahha
okay anyway,

I'm getting graduated tonight!!!
all i know is that the place is at yio chu kang
will be meeting my classmates at the busstop outside my school
which means i'll miss 4th avenue's gig at MS ROAD!!!
haha, okay i gotta leave soon
so goodbye everyone!

songoftheday
this day and age - second place victory

missed the train to wonderland again...

2005-10-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

i hope all those things you said were just out of anger, am i so useless to you? i know what i'm doing, everysingle thing i do is wrong and you just have to keep talking about it. Why cant you fucking understand me? I'm sick and tired of going thru all these, i seriously had enough.
if you really want me to go, i will

HATE
i love that word

new american classic

2005-10-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

hello everyone
tmr is my nlevel paper
and after that i dont have to go to school anymore!!!
except for the school leaving ceremony

gonna miss secondary school life
especially the canteen food!
haha, okay thats all
feeling kinda tired now
goodnight everyone
have fun in school haha

ANYWAY!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO KENNETH YONG SWEE BOON
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA LIM!

song of the day
daphne loves derby-the longest story

judgement dayyyyyyyyyyyyy

2005-10-04T14:47:00.000+08:00

hellow everyone
i got my comp repaired
but all my songs and videos are gone
but nvm, i can d/l them 1 by 1 again

tmr is my nlevel maths paper 1
i really really really regretted not studying
today was so last minute trying to catch up
if i fail my maths
i have no where to go
i think i'll just die
seriously

okay thats all
i'm so fucking scared for tmrrr

hellow fluffy

2005-10-01T07:28:00.000+08:00

hellow,
i'm at eugene's house now
my comp is down la chee bye!!!
i dont like his dog
going for pantat's party soon
okay thats all

techno is good

The Last Face She'll Ever See

2005-09-25T18:06:00.000+08:00

set your mark and keep around it
thoughts that are just the opposite of you
it happens everytime you fall
you write it off as you were all
and sing to me when you're sinking
and you know I'm wide awake and watching for you

cause I swear when you're there alone
know that I'm wide awake tonight.
and silence doesnt mean i dont care
i'll wait for you
hope is all i can do

my heart, you've bleed it dry

sleepless nights

2005-09-18T16:47:00.000+08:00

ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP ICANT SLEEP!!!!!!!!!

this is getting from bad to worst! i've been sleeping really late on school nights for almost everyday! this really cant go on.

going to school and look as if i havent slept for years is one of the reason why i cant concentrate in class for revisions.

okay anyway, i think i'm studying at green tmr with whoever is going there, i'll try and improve my maths and science in this short period of time before the papers. And i cant believe that i've like 3 or 2 more weeks left in school, i gonna miss secondary school life although i kinda hate it, miss my classmates, the food, the nice teachers and all hahaa. okay i think i should TRY and sleep now.

song of the day,
It Dies Today - A Threnody of Modern Romance

so long and goodnight...

She Will Be Loved

2005-09-18T06:57:00.000+08:00

i never dreamt of it this way
i lost any chance for me to say
to say that i miss you, say that i love you
will someone please tell me i'm okay

wherever you go, i will be waiting
whenever you call, i will be there
whatever it takes, i'll make your darkest days so bright
i'm in your heart tonight

it's so hard letting go

94 Hours

2005-09-16T07:38:00.000+08:00

i so want this fucking guitarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

i'm so damn bored at home
so i was just browsing around for guitars
and i found this damn cool one
i love it!

Artifacts of The Black Rain

2005-09-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

i think i should just give up on my maths and science
i have like so little time to study and all

and i really dont feel like going to school tmr
it's getting real boring although it's my last year in sch
i dont careeeeee
had my cpa practical today
i think i screwed up the whole paper
printing the wrong stuff
not reading things carefully
i'm so dumb
i think she's right, i'm a loser

2005-09-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

i am andy's official blog template maker person. yay!

-puffthemagicdragon

2005-09-12T15:58:00.000+08:00

who is willing and have the patience to give me maths tuition?
hahaha

i dont mind spending everyday
out on your corner in the pouring rain

2005-09-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

trying hard not to find the answer,
of what you're gonna say.
whether if we could make this last forever.
and if you would allow me to stay.

it never seems to happen
that i'll ever find my place.
and when i see what's up above me.
i'd always see your face.

you see it never was that simple,
to find who was in your eyes.
building up this feeling each time you pass me by.
and when we get too close.
i feel it isn't right.
yet sometimes i wish that i could just hold you
and somehow stop time.

you never gave me a chance,
and i never had enough.
you only had me at "hello",
and then you would take off,
off to all the others that you thought might the ones
who would give you everything that you've been
wishing for under our stars.

Nat: I miss you very much too. 90 more days till you're back, cant wait huh? and yesyes teenage mutant ninja turtles foreverxXxXxX!!

anyway, i lost my phone!!

2005-09-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

i swear that if i could
i'd take it all
take it all away
all the sorrow and the pain

i'm dying to find
what's missing from my life
now i've found it
it was you,

those memories
of me and you still remains
i really miss those times
i want them back

my last words,
so long and goodnight

2005-08-30T16:49:00.000+08:00

I hope you are happy now
Your family just lost a son

hate...

2005-08-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

you've got to get better
said, it's all in your head
we could live through these letters or forget it altogether
see the months they dont matter its the days i can't take
when the hours move to minutes
and i'm seconds away

when all that we need is just a reaction
its too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
chasing our dreams is just a distraction
i want to remember what i know...
that i can't go back,

just ask the question
come untie the knot
say you wont care
retrace the steps as if we forgot
say you wont care
you try to avoid it
but theres not a doubt
and theres one thing i can do nothing
theres one thing i can do nothing
theres one thing i can do nothing about

2005-08-27T15:22:00.000+08:00

I still care although we talk to one another that much anymore.
you may think that we're drifting apart, we're not
you may think that I dont care about you, I still do

2005-08-22T06:08:00.000+08:00

I could open up my heart and let her out
and I would never have to sing her name aloud
it was your hello that kept me hanging on every word
and your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner

2005-08-14T09:43:00.000+08:00

This is so unfair
what did we do?

2005-08-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

It's not too late to save the remnants of our hearts
so stop giving up our last shot at love
our only chance to find the meaning of
the beat beneath the blood

we laugh at honor and are shocked when
we find knives in our backs
we follow those who cheat and steal
look in my eyes you wont find your way back
our only compass smashed under our own heels
reason abandoned to appetites and addicts arms
shotguns and silence have always been the best of charms

2005-07-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

Your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
My heart is dead and its way past beating
Something has gone terribly wrong

I'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
I never thought we'd make it out alive
I never told you but its all in your goodbyes
It's all in your goodbyes

Well look who's dying now
Slit wristless sleeping with the girl next door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
It doesnt matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
Never mattered anyway

In this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over
It's all over

I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes

2005-07-25T11:51:00.000+08:00

On friday, almost all the greeners went down to hougang green and celebrate Matthias' 18th Birthday. I seriously cant remember who went but all I know is that I got drunk and there's like so much beer there, Matt I hope you had a great time at green. We're suppose to make matthias drunk but it turn out to be us to get drunk first hahaa. I left hougang green about 3am and the next day. Avery's birthday gig at the dont know what pub in loyang. CFB,CARACAL,ARISTROTLE,SUMMER'S OVER & 4TH AVENUE played. All the bands were great! Especially 4th avenue, I think they're the best! hahaa. One of my friend Nicholas even moshed into the vip room's glass. Everybody was shocked cause there's a piece of glass went into his right hand, he actually pulled it out, It was really sick. His flesh is like hanging from his hand and blood's dripping down like nobody's business. Oh ya! there's drink there again! hahahaa and we left the pub for avery's place at around 1am+. We got there and slack by the pool till about 5am+ hahaaa. And I went to hougang green and met matthias and all and I reached home at around 6+. I woke up this afternoon at 4pm, stayed at home the whole day watching tv, i'm still so fuckign tired but i cant sleepp.

2005-07-20T15:27:00.000+08:00

School is getting so boring even though prelims and nlevels are coming. I was really bored in english class today, what I did was, the teacher gave a worksheets to do and it's like a comprehension or sth, I'm so darn lazy to read the passage so I just wrote what ever that comes into my mind in answer sheet. I wrote sth like, "hello, your father's gay" and on the cover page, instead of writing my own name I wrote 5 of my classmates names on it, cheap thrills.... Racial Harmony Day Carnival is this friday, I bought the coupons but I so dont feel like going but I've not been going to school for quite a few days these few weeks maybe coz I'm lazy? I don't knowww. So, Today I met up with Jeremy & Joshua for dinner at green and went to macs and studied for awhile, Eh I think I saw a bunch of pigs flying in the sky and they're holding a banner which says "Nestor Is Studying". Yeah! Nestor Ee Fernandez(however you spell it) came down to green and study with us. Johnny,Scott,Kenneth,Cheryl came down around 7+ and we had coffee and talks at the coffee shop as usual then about 9+ we went back to macs, and I left about 10+ and I have to wait for my dumb sister to finish using the comp! Okay I'll try to sleep early tonight, coz last night I tried to sleep early but I fell asleep only at arund 2am+ I think. I have no idea what's wrong with me, sleeping only after 1am on school days and waking up at 8am and get ready and walk to school as if I'm gonan die soon. This is not good
okay that's all, goodnight everyone...

song of the day.
Underoath - A boy brushed red living in black and white

2005-07-19T15:11:00.000+08:00

If my lungs still let me breathe
would you be there for me
If I can make myself believe
I'll give you back what you took away

no, I won't let it go
douse myself in gasoline
so Don't save me when you come into the fire
I'd rather die than have to see your smile

2005-07-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

sooooooooo long and goooooooodnight!
=x

2005-07-15T03:03:00.000+08:00

Archers in your arches,Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry

Your history is mine

So you want to hold me up and bring me down?
Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down

I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you
I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you.

2005-07-13T04:39:00.000+08:00

i get so jealous when i see other family communicate with one another so easily, that has never ever happen to me before. When i talk to my father normally, he cant hear and when i raise my voice in order to let him hear what i'm saying, He'll say i'm shouting at him. My whole family is against me, Whatever my sister do is fine with them even if she brings her bf home untill 2am+, hiding in the room and not knowing what are they doing. How i wish i could just sit down and talk to my family nicely, talk things out. That's what i did last night, but i failed. I'm blogging this cause i just wanna let it all out, if yall think i'm trying to make myself look so pity and wanting yall to come and console me, please fuck off!. Why does is it a big fuss when i dont go to school and how does it feel when your father thinks that his own son is some big gangster and he's useless and hopless, and even intend to send his son to the boys home. My fucking parents just fucking dont understand me at all, fuck everysingle on of them. why dont yall just die!? i wouldn't mind.......

2005-07-12T07:03:00.000+08:00

you like going school so much right! then go la stupid whore. What kind of stupid mother are you, you're always on my sister's side. Everything she does is right, including her stupid fucking useless boyfriend stay at our house till 2am and they always hide inside the room. Do you know wat are they doing inside!? you know anot ah! fucking bitch, I so feel like thrashing everysingle thing in the house. Go Hougang Green coffee shop everyday means i'm a gangster la, parent's thinking are always the old fashion way. Tattoo = Gangster , Sit Down Coffee Shop = Gangster. Fuck you la bitch! Everything i do is wrong la. Why when jiejie comes home late you never say anything!? i come home at 11pm you say late! then wat time is early to you stupid whore! and you stupid dumb father. You cant hear properly so just keep your fucking mouth shut and stand one side!? everysingle one in this family is siding my sister! WHy! stupid whores. is it because she's smarter or i'm just stupid and useless infront of yall's eyes!? i had enough. one day i swear i'm gonna do something i'm not gonna let this continue. i'm already 16 i know how to take care of myself. why must you gossip with other bitches underblocks and saying "aiya you shouldn'y let your son go out so late, later he get into fight and stuff" fuck yall stupid aunties! suck my fucking cock and shut up! why are yall\s mouth so big ah!? who so stupid go create trouble and get into fight. only your children la... i'm not one of them.. i jsut fucking cant stand them anymore. So wat mom if i nvr go sch today. means i must stay at home and listen to you nag at me everysingle sec and min!? you wanna try going to sch and see how it feels not!? does it feel goood when you dont have anybody to talk to in class? how does it feel when some of the teachers are ignoring you!? try going to schh la stupid bitch.i wanna fucking give you and slap in the face and chop you into pieces know i swear. I'm gonna be dead tonight.. i smash my cuboard with my sister's hockey stick. smashed my mom's table and cupboard and my window. when my dad comes back. my mom will have a wonderful story for my father.

i dont care what the fuck you all may think of this entry, yall can go bitch about it everwhere you one, if it gets too far i'll fucking smash your face. go ahead and think watever you all want okay i'm sick and tired of all this think watever you want i am a uselesss son. good for nothing! go ahead bitches!

2005-07-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

afew of my best friends left for australia, the latest is zac. You stupid dumb ass, you're suppose to form with me a chinese screamo band and you just left us like that.

Just get your friggin asses back in singapore as soon as possible "Nat,Stacey,Zac" And make sure yall come back for the Hougang Green "Hell Breaks Loose" party in early december!

2005-07-06T14:53:00.000+08:00

i'm sick sick sick sick sick again...
the feeling is terrible, just hate being sick. I wasn't intending to go to school today but i thought the english oral was today but it's on friday. I slept in almost the whole day in school. My sore throat is getting from bad to worst and my cough too, just cant stop coughing and i dont know why i'm still smoking like normal. It's not so easy to quit like what the others say aiya i dont know la. I seriously dont feel like going school tmr and i think i'll start studying next week.
byebye

song of the day
theused - let it bleed

2005-07-05T14:26:00.000+08:00

went skating today at dhoby after so long and went to parklane or sth, i dont know what's that place called had dinner there and the wanton mee sucks big time, $3 somemore. After that me,josh,kenneth went down green and met the rest, stayed there for like 10mins and went home. I'm still in the holiday mood, totally cant study at all and i just remembered that tmr's my nlevel english oral.

song of the day
funeralforafriend - end of nothing

2005-07-02T16:41:00.000+08:00

Make your way down the face
Of everything we know
Go so far see other places and
Other people I won't know about

And breathe in deep let it out slow
Did you hear it's all my fault again
I know why no one else knows
why I'm here all alone again

make it sound so good that
I won't be right and I walk alone tonight
outside my house and outside my mind
no matter what I say I'm never right

2005-07-01T06:30:00.000+08:00

Thank you stacey for making my blogskin for me! thanks so much!!!! okay! gonna go meet scott for a coffee at green soon that's all for today and I HATE TEACHERS! YEAH! HATE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH!

song of the day:
funeralforafriend - roses for the dead

2005-06-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

Last night i went for my relatives' wedding dinner, someone that i've never seen before. The food , wine and all was good ahaha, after that at around 11+ i went for zac's farewell party at punggol park, so many people was there and it was a great party hahaha. We had bike races and police and theif sessions some cards too. Me , Matthias , Justin & Bryan played black jack and the loser must me 3 spoons of the super spicy leftover mee goreng haha! and i reached home at around 5.30am+. and I woke up at 3.30 the next day and i remembered zac's flight's at 5pm. so i quickly rush to the airport and reached there around 4.45 i think and i only got to see zac for like a few minutes. I will miss you la zac and please remember when you come back, we must jam with our chinese screamo band. So we all left the airport and some head to green, had dinner and i went for a haircut because school's starts tmr! okay that's all for today. i'm so tired but i wanna watch resident evil at 10pm.
byebye.

song of the day
funeralforafriend - all the rage

2005-06-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO

had lots of fun at sentosa yesterday, okay let me try to remember you went yesterday. me,kenneth,scott,josh,zac,russell,shaun andy,shaun chan,nicole,cheryl,mardi,hetty,jeremy,matthias,jackson,gary,joel,eugene francis,shaun adam,deryk,pantat. i think that's all.. hahaa and the joke at sentosa is, matthias tore his pants HAAHA. At around 6+ we all left sentosa and some going clubbing and some going hougang green. And yes i din go clubbing i went to hougang green with jeremy,jackson,shuan andy,zac. and at around 11+ russell and shaun andy came over to my house for a game of monopoly.. haha then at around 1+. we sneaked out of my house and went down to green and meet zac.. and went home at around 5+.. and SOMEONE is suppose to come down but that person fell asleep but nvm. that person owes me a lunch for that. thats all for today. i'm going green now. byebye

song of the day-
funeralforafriend-history

2005-06-20T10:04:00.000+08:00

Can you see that my strength is failing and I cant go on this way and this heart is not beating.
It just doesnt seem the same, and my strength is failing and I cant go on this way.

Cant go on this way....

2005-06-13T16:41:00.000+08:00

Archers in your arches, Raise your fingers for one last salute
I'll bleed this skyline dry,Until your history is mine
So you want to hold me up and bring me down?
Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down
But I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you
I don't care for your sweet scent,
Or the way you want me more than I want you

2005-06-10T16:12:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
Street Fest Finals was great! The results are 1st. Zero Sequence, 2nd. Youthwreck & 3rd. Crossbred

Tragedy Limits didn't win but they played so fucking well. Their song was about 8mins hahaa. "Laid to rest+Ruin+11th hour" all by Lamb Of God. Somehow they managed to combine these 3 songs into one and it turn out so fucking nice, and almost everyone from our clique were headbanging and moshed for awhile right infront of the stage. The judges , the crew and all were looking us but who cares! I swear that was the best tragedy limits gig ever! And, they're performing again tommorow and the day after alongside with Crossbred & Velvet Rose I think. So do come down and watch them. Thats all for today and the pictures will be up soon!
byebye.

2005-06-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

Tragedy Limits and Crossbred got into the finals!!!! hahahaa Tragedy Limits was great! I think it's the best performance from them so far hahaaa... sadly Velvet Rose didn't get into the finals, but they played real good anyway. And i lost my voice cause i was screaming and cheering for them while they're playing.. and christopher told me alot of people was looking at me..haha i think they thought i was retarded or sth.. haha okay that's all for today.

pictures will be up soon!
byebye

2005-06-05T05:34:00.000+08:00

byebye stacey
we'll miss you
and please take care

2005-06-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

I'll keep this as a constant reminder of the nights I spent holding onto her
And rest assured I'm moving on
I miss you less, with each day you're gone

so goodbye to you and your lies

2005-06-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

Tragedy Limits , Velvet Rose & Crossbred made to the semi-finals of the street revolution competition.

Tragedy Limits played "11th Hour" by Lamb Of God , Velvet Rose played "Overture 1928" by Dream Theater & Crossbred played "Bad Horsie" by Steve Vai.

Pictures will be up soon.

thank you byebye.

2005-05-28T16:22:00.000+08:00

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right. I'm tripping on words, you've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to lose. And it's you and me and all of the people and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Lifehouse - You And Me

2005-05-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete

We're glistening like silver spoons
Beneath the summer night
Oh can you smell the subtle hint of frost
As the flowers start to cry
The autumn winds are bringing graves
To all the emerald trees
They're so beautiful in their dismay
The colors slowly bleed

2005-05-20T15:14:00.000+08:00

When eyes are red, we can't talk for a while. But i have sweet nothings to say, you don't want me anyway. So why? Why should I stay?

So goodbye to you and your life. Your new best friends, your confidence, and I'll be here when you get home.

Sitting half way, away from nowhere, praying for our lips to touch. Holding myself for a second just to catch you smile on this line

It's just like you said it would be, it's never easy.
I can't feel the same about you anymore

FuneralForAFriend - Streetcar

2005-05-13T16:13:00.000+08:00

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
I see, To me you're strange and you're beautiful.

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes

2005-05-13T11:48:00.000+08:00

These days begin and they don't end for weeks, leave me left out of anything to do with you, excuse me while I fall apart, don't flatter yourself sweetheart. Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car, do you have to make this so hard?

You're so good at pretending everything is alright, you're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked.

2005-05-11T15:07:00.000+08:00

The paradox of power and peace will destroy itself, to know the truth and live in fear of no man, to realize that this in itself is an ascension, toward the day we revolt

My redemption lies in your demise. Rejoice, the age of the fall has begun, we'll dance as the palaces burn.

2005-05-11T02:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!

Just got back from scott's place, haha was supposed to be studying there but we all didn't have the mood to do it so yeahh. We're like talking and joking around most of the time hahaa, anyways tmr's my CPA exam which is the last paper! finally after 3 damn weeks! haha okay that's all for today byebye.

song of the day
Dream Theater - Overture 1928

2005-05-08T05:06:00.000+08:00

The red poison of your lips
The red poison of your eyes
Is where I kissed the blood from
Just that corner of your mouth
where I can see the
White of your smile

Up to my eyes
When I'm seeing without you
Up to my heart
When I'm bleeding without you

Funeral For A Friend
Escape Artist Never Die

2005-05-07T03:24:00.000+08:00

Needs to be a revolution
Maybe theirs to be less tension
They become into the nature
Far frustrating
Need some time for recollection
Maybe I don't need this fixing
Need to be a thing to nature

So proceed with caution
I pull my heart from the end
You always took it and broke it over me
You say that I didn't care
How could my dream turn to despair?

Bullet For My Valentine
Turn To Despair

Too much sorrow, no tomorrow

2005-05-06T08:00:00.000+08:00

As the sun sets on battlefields
I hope you can save me
I hope you can save our
wounded hearts

Distance makes my heart grow colder
Distance makes my heart grow older
Just enough to cut the
air from your lungs

As the sun sets
On battlefields
I hope you can save me
I hope you can save us from ourselves

Denial in the arms of our saviours
And my heart is torn to pieces
Just enough to cut the
air from your lungs

And paper cuts and bloody hands,
in the middle they would meet

Funeral For A Friend
-Bend your arms to look like wings

2005-05-05T10:32:00.000+08:00

Today was my science paper, and it's not good at all. I could only do like 1 or 2 question haha. Okay I'm gotta go cut my fucking hair and after that will be at scott's place studying. byebye

song of the day
Hand To Hand - The Arson

2005-05-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

had my maths paper 1 today and I think i'm gonna fail with flying colours. Just got back from scott's, was studying for my 2 science papers tmr. okay that's all byebye.

song of the day
Bullet For My Valentine - Hand Of Blood

2005-05-03T06:39:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

This is my new layout
enjoy.

2005-05-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
but the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
you know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
memories of christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
but what I wouldn't give
to have one more chance tonight

2005-05-02T03:03:00.000+08:00

i'm still sick...
and it's the 5th dayyy

2005-04-30T10:05:00.000+08:00

it's not good being sick
this is the 3rd day already
i cant take this anymoreeeeee

please someone help me i'm dying here infront of youuu

2005-04-25T13:51:00.000+08:00

I'm sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do
trying to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
but you know it's not working out
cause you're all that's on my mind
one thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

2005-04-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

can we stay the same if
I move half the world away?
we'll float off through the night
and hope to meet somewhere in between
and the sunshine will give every story
a bright side another happy ending
on the West Coast
you'll never need a raincoat
dreaming's what we're doing out here

will the stars shine the same
on your side of half the world away
wish upon a moonlit sky
that I will be back again
someday and the night life a
temporary yes good bye
you'll do right and I will do the same
on the West Coast
you'll never need a winter coat
waiting's what I'm doing out here

every story has an end
but I prefer to begin again
just like a book I've never read
I'd prefer to begin again

2005-04-18T14:08:00.000+08:00

with nothing more to say
the sun bleeds through the skies
and bled to your eyes
I'll be understanding tonight
I'll understand everything tonight

If I could take your pain away
I would scream for you
I would bleed for you
so you'll never feel this way
again when you're in my arms
I would scream for you
I would bleed for you

I'll wait for you
hoping to change your mind
hoping's all I can do

so I'll wait for you
hoping to change your mind
I'll wait for you...

2005-04-14T13:31:00.000+08:00

As you walk away for the last time
could you hear my heart consumed behind you?
As you turn your back from the dying
did you feel the sun burn out inside you?
You set my wings ablaze
You will run from familiar arms into their embrace.
I hope they love you like I did when you needed me
and I came to you that night

2005-04-13T13:44:00.000+08:00

Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone

2005-04-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

abandon the safety of mindless following
abandon what holds us captive to suffering
pierce the blinders, behold the path that leads us
before you let us forsake
all the things that lead us to our demise

open your eyes to the divine
open your eyes and see the
destruction of innocence
watch it breathe its last

open your eyes
see the abandon the safety
of mindless following
to the grave, we take this oath
to leave the world behind

break free
this is your time
break Free
to the grave take this oath

2005-04-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

all I can taste is this moment
and all I can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

and I don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

2005-04-09T15:14:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY.. Went monster and played a few rounds of pool and after that we head down to 3rd place for Xsjados' gig then, me,ken,josh,joel,christian,bryan,leslie,gary,shaun and russell played CS at kovan... and it was like 1am already and we went to meet nat at the playground near her house.. me,ken,josh,nigel&shaun walked from kovan mrt to s.v.d.p and took a cab down to her house... we were like walking with our shirts off, so shaun went home and we finally get to see nat after so long! nat.ho and ally was there already.. but both of them left at around 5am+.. and me,nigel,josh,ken&nat went off at about 5.30 la... our legs are already breaking after the stupid long walk from kovan to svdp... I got home about 6+.. and from nat house we took a bus to hougang point.. and we walked home from there... and then

TODAY- I woke up at 2.30.. cause my mom woke me up for "breakfast".. after that I went to scott's house and went down to green.. and here I am.. my legs are still aching. but nvm at least we still got to see nat.

song of the day
no use for a name-international you day

without you, my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so, I'll try let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

2005-04-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
til i understand or go blind

Note:
Nat's back tommorow

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2005-04-03T18:40:00.000+08:00

Just got home not long ago from hougang green.. First I went monster with kenneth and met russell there, Joshua came awhile later and we played a few rounds of pool, then we went ps for dinner and head to Kenneth's and met up with Shuan Andy. Me , Shaun & Kenneth wanted to go Scott house and stay but he said not today so we went under scott's block and played cards. At first I went home bath and change and I didn't smoke the whole damn day so I took a stick from my dad and went down. When Kenneth wanted to take a puff the police came.. I think they're just petrolling la. Obviously I flicked the cig away and as usual our names got taken down. I know one of the police man, he screened us before at 401 while we're skating.. he has got the same name as me so I can remember. After awhile Scott and Nicole came and slack with us for awhile and all those nonsense.. It was good, talking about april fools day in school and alot more lahhh, it's was really damn funny.. Russell and Nicole left.. And me , ken and scott decided to share and buy a pack of fags.. so we went down to green and slack outside macs for awhile and went home. And so here I am, I just dont know why I cant sleep anways, it's 4 more days till Nat's back.. Time really past real fast...

Song Of the Day
Lamb Of God - Ruin

The knowledge that seeking the favor of another.Means the murder of self. This is the resolution the end of all progress. The death of evolution,It bleeds all life away. Silence speeds the path to the streams of solace that run so few and narrow. Brooks that babble the sounds of torture. You will one day rise to flood the banks of the chosen. This is the art of ruin, This is the resolution, The end of all progress. The death of evolution,It bleeds all life away.I will teach you all that I have mastered. Fear,Pain,Hatred,Power. This is the art of ruin.

2005-03-30T15:32:00.000+08:00

look at my face you pierce with a blank stare
no dream could prepare
a heart for a lifeless friend
she's gone nothing will take back time
I need her back
but nothing will take back time
I can see just fine with you in my life
there by my side as it starts to fade

I know this can't be right
stuck in a dream
a nightmare full of sorrow
And I'll miss your laugh your smile

2005-03-29T14:54:00.000+08:00

It's days like these, that make me feel
like I want to bleed through my heart again
It's days like these, that make me feel
like I might as well be on my own again
I take back everything
I did, about loving you
Now that you've left me on the ground

Don't pretend like I don't know you're untrue
I never meant to bring you down
nothing but good intentions
I never meant to bring you down
Take it back this time
i'll just move on
Take my heart, make it grey
I'll never forget

2005-03-27T07:41:00.000+08:00

cold was my soul
untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
a rose in the rain..
so I swore to the razor
that never, enchained
would your dark nails of faith
be pushed through my veins again

2005-03-25T17:57:00.000+08:00

they say this is medicine
an overdose of oxygen
a severed head as sedative
to be at peace would be a sin
and surely un-american
i'm breaking down

lift the veil, it's not medicine
and my heart fails, time and time again

2005-03-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

It's like everything is changing
and it'll never be the same anymore

Funeral For A Friend - Juneau

2005-03-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

see all those people on the ground
wasting timeI try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that I have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down, slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

I'm dying the slowest death...

2005-03-18T17:47:00.000+08:00

I just got back from green. Scott's birthday today, okay i'm blogging high and i dont really know wat i'm typing so ya. Scott mom and jon opened total 48 of bottles of carlberg i think and quite alot of them are still there coz i left early and i think they opened a few more.. okay let me try to remember who was there.. Scott,Scott's mom,Jon, Ryan, Matthias,Nicole, Hetty, Cheryl, Josh, Me,Ken, Nestor, Brandon, Norman, Justin, Zac, Kevin, Jeremy, and uncle maowi.. that's all i think. i'm rather tired now so i shall go to sleep. anways fabian's party at gary's condo was great! we had to sleep at the playground,clubhouse and by the swimming pool.. rather cool ahhhhhh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCOTT 18/03/2005
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FABIAN 17/03/2005

2005-03-18T12:32:00.000+08:00

so let me take this medicine
to quench my love for violent things
my swan song willBe like a bullet laced in anger
as the razor cuts a soft spot
on your heel

these bayonet scars never cease
to blind the light shed from the beast
and all we do is hate

so follow me into the sun
and I will bleed, the poisons dry

don't give the secret
my stoic face
beaten with passion
the phoenix will die
inside the fire storm
I am the son
so follow my footsteps