Is this a feeling for you worth keeping? Does all those memories of us still worth keeping? Does me holding on to you mean something?

I admit for my selfishness and all my lies about me changing forthe better, I admit for all the times I got jealous about stuff and kept hiding it, I admit for all the anger I've kept and not telling you about it, I admit to everysingle one that read this. Cause I wanna everyone that I have been learning, changing for the better and start over a new life in all these days of agonizing pain. For I am nothing without you, happiness isnt a word in my life anymore. I am still holding on and waiting for that very day when I get your call or at least a message. Cant you see apologise bleed from my eyes? Is there still hope, Is there still a chance. My mind is just nothing but you walking in circles in it. Waiting for that one day that you are willing to forgive me.